I entered my 25th year with big plans. After a quarter century I'd had ample time to get my shit together and make some critical decisions. My girlfriend of 5 years and I had just moved in together with our two labs. I was a year and a half into a career in the fly fishing industry and loving it. I had a great group of family and friends in town, at least a few of whom suffered a common affliction - a borderline unhealthy lust for time spent in the woods and on the water. With the work-life balance at an all-time high (or low, depending on who you asked) it was time to quiet my critics and solidify the burning question:
Where would I fish in 2011?



The whispers had begun long ago, and though muffled Spanish can be difficult to understand, by late January the message was clearer and harder to ignore. I needed a taste of sea salt instead of road salt, not mention a little vitamin D and tequila. I resisted, thinking the money I'd save could be better spent in other ways. Luckily, one of those afflicted friends was able to convince me otherwise.


Meanwhile the rivers of NE Ohio were already undergoing their spring swell. But this year was different. The Old Man had overstayed his welcome and mother nature had reached her breaking point. Having been held captive by ice for months the rivers finally roared back, overtaking their banks and anything that stood in their paths. On the Chagrin that happened to include the century-old Gates Mills dam. I stood over the river to bear witness only hours after the dam became but a memory, wondering what would be revealed when the water finally receded.













Not suprisingly I suppose, I was fishing when I took the call. I didn't want to answer it, not because I was afraid of what I might hear, but because I was half way through a picture perfect steelhead run and didn't want to be distracted. It has always seemed to me that my life is in perpetual motion, and that's the way I like it. I go harder on my days off than I do on my days on. I'm not even unpacked from one trip and I'm leaving for the next. My clothes rarely make it to a closet or dresser; despite my fiance's repeated pleas, I continue to live out of the laundry basket on my bedroom floor. I have a hard enough time putting down the rod to take pictures or eat a sandwich, so the last thing I wanted to do while knee-deep in my favorite steelhead river was to take a call from my doctor.
A few weeks earlier, while driving to Indiana for our engagement pictures, I'd found a lump in my neck. I was confused if not a little concerned and showed it to Becky's parents to see what they made of it. Their consensus was that it was a lymph node and they encouraged me to have it looked at as soon as I got home. I did, and at my doctor's request arranged to have the node removed and biopsied.
To my credit, I didn't actually stop fishing until I heard the word "lymphoma." I reeled in my rig, made arrangements to see my doctor in a couple of days, and took a seat on the bank. I watched the river slow to a halt. I wasn't sad, I wasn't angry, I wasn't anything. The world was on pause, just long enough for me to realize that, whether I liked it or not, from this moment forward my life was going to take a slightly different direction. I decided I could accept that - as long as that direction ran parallel to a river. Then I went back to fishing.
I even got to sneak in a little time in the duck blind

That night, as this entire fall has been for me, was a reminder of the value of friendship. Having people in your life who care about you and who are willing to go out of their way for your best interest is a blessing. Having some of those people share the same passions that you do is an even greater blessing. 2011 made me realize how incredibly lucky I am to have the friends and family I do and to lead the life that I live, and I can't wait to tackle 2012 with them at my side.